Self Discovery

Howdy,

Sorry for not being consistent with blogging.  This is something new for me.  I will try to be better.  Okay, so the new year did not start off very well.  I went through a bit of a slump when my hubby went out of town and now that he is back I am much better.

On a positive note, I started crossfit at Blue Star Crossfit!  I love it!  I was doing something like it before but not to the full extent of crossfit.  One thing about me that needs work (a lot) is getting over fear!  FEAR stands for False Evidence Appearing Real,  so I basically hinder my progress.  Another thing I learned about myself was 1) I don't eat well if I am not working out, 2) I like working out with a group of people.  So this brings me back to the beginning of this year, I was not in a group setting and I was not consistent with my workouts, when I did go to the gym, so I over ate.  I know, pretty pathetic, but I'm learning about myself.

I have now been eating better and have been attending crossfit since Saturday, 1/19/13.  The trainer and crossfitters are GREAT!  In the two classes I have participated I have burned 400 - 600 calories and I am sore!  Now, I just need to keep my eating in check.  I've tried the Paleo way of eating and it is harder than I thought.  I haven't given up on it just yet but would like to get some help.  I don't think I do to well with the fruit, I feel I crave more sugar when I have fruit which leads me to poor eating because I associate the sweet taste of the fruit with bad, not so good for you sweets.  So, I have to cut back on the fruit.  I was thinking of purchasing the book, The 21-Day Sugar Detox, which I think may come in handy but with headaches.  LOL!  I will keep you posted!

For Health

Hello Peeps (don't like the sugar treat that is associated with this name),

So, sometimes I feel like I am misunderstood.  Let me explain...  I started this journey January 2011 right after I got the lab results back from my Doctor.  I was very sad but knew it was my fault and had no one to blame. I was labeled diabetic (A1C - 7.1) with high cholesterol (241).  So the only thing left to do, after I had my moment of self pity, was to buckle down and CHANGE! Yes, that word makes me cringe.  I don't like change, I am a creature of habit and like routine, structure, you get it, the opposite of change.  I managed to lose weight that year with the help of HCG and a great guy who took a chance on my and trained me in exchange for a testimonial.  I knew that after training with him I could workout, eat healthy and look great.  So now after having my labs checked every three months for two years, I have maintained healthy numbers (A1C-6.1 Cholesterol-205). 

Now, you might be thinking, you did change.  You are right, forcefully!  I love my family and feel I would be letting them down if I didn't change.  I have more cheat meals than I should.  I would like to just control my eating and have admirable self-discipline to just say no and walk away.  However, I don't!  So, I am in need of change.  What this means is that I am going to have to research what is best for me and the family as a whole.  I have to start by making a list of the foods that we can eat and go from there.  

As I mentioned on my first post, I started on the 1st of this year with the 48 hour cleanse and it didn't work as well as I had expected.  As a matter of fact, I felt like I was starved.  The 3rd day started off well, with a cup of coffee and some fruit for my morning workout (GISG 12 week workout).  The rest of the day, I ate protein, vegetables, mixed nuts and fruit.  I was a happy camper and did not feel hungry.  The 4th day, started off real well, then it steadily declined as I indulged a little, okay, a lot.  My little family, a family friend and I went out on the town and ate out.  I know, I could have made better choices but fell off the wagon.  So, today was a much better day.  

On another note, my hubby went out of town (work related) and will not be back for a couple of weeks.  So, my challenge to myself is to think, actually think about the foods that are in front of me and decide if it is something I need or something I want, 2nd, make healthy meals for us at home and 3rd work out at least 4 times each week.  I will keep you posted.  

Thanks for reading.  I will be back very soon.  

Hopeful   

Courage

January 1, 2013

Verse of the Day:  The LORD's unfailing love and mercy still continue, fresh as the morning, as sure as the sunrise. Lamentations 3:22-23

Greetings family, friends, and curious viewers,

I am so excited about my first day to a better me. I will give you a flashback into my life. I have always had a difficult time with my weight. As a child, I was always a big girl, referred to as big bone, pretty face, and my nickname growing up and still is, is "Gordis". I have tried an array of diets that I was successful with but gained my weight back.

Aside from genetics, I have come to terms that it is my eating habits.  I have a love for food but I am also an emotional eater that is addicted to sugar.  Oh, chocolate and sugar together are my drug of choice.  I prefer to eat a dessert over drinking an adult beverage.

This year I plan to pray more, work on making healthy choices, healthy meals and exercise at least four days a week.  Something I'd like to try is the Paleo way of eating.  My hubby bought me a book, The Paleo Diet, for Christmas.  I had mentioned it to him and he surprised me with this book and a couple more books for preparing meals (400 calories) and snacks (100 calories).  Needless to say, my husband is supportive.

I'm ready to take this year on and hopefully conquer some of my goals.  Today I started Dr. Oz's 48 hour cleanse in hopes that I can get rid of some of the forbidden foods that were oh so tasty but not good for me.  Here are some of my goals that I have for this year.  I'm sure that I will add to the list as I blog.

GOALS:
Read the Bible
Lose fat
Gain Lean Muscle
Try Crossfit and stick with it (or an exercise regime of some sort)
Prepare my meals for the week on Sunday
Weigh myself on a weekly basis
Take monthly pictures
Be positive
Stress less

Starting weight: 170.4 (I've gained 7 pounds since Dec. 1st)

Getting the courage to change my eating habits,

Hopeful